All you need to know about me!!!!

SCORPIO - The Intense One

Very energetic

Intelligent

Can be jealous and/or possessive

Hardworking

Great kisser

Can become obsessive or secretive

Holds grudges

Attractive

Determined

Loves being in long relationships

Talkative

Romantic

Can be self-centered at times

Passionate and Emotional.

Facing my fears!! Help me Father.

Why is it so hard to face my fears?
Where does fear come from?
Why do I feel that fear is taking over me?
Does fear really have power over me?
How can I face fear?
Is there any way out?
Can't I just pretend that it's not there?
Who can defeat my fear?
Why do we have fear?
Is it true that only GOD can help me to face my fear?


And my Father's words for me:

Psalm 23:4
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me.

Psalm 27:1
The LORD is my light and my salvation whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life of whom shall I be afraid?

Isaiah 41:13
For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.

1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love

1 peter 3:14
But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. "Do not fear what they fear ; do not be frightened."

Revelation 14:7
Fear God and give him glory, because the hour of his judgment has come. Worship him who made the heavens, the earth, the sea and the springs of water."

I love you too, but....

there's something missing, it doesn't feel right. There's a gap between us and you know it. Love alone is not enough and life is too short for selfish attitude.

I know you love me and somewhere in the middle I loved you too and I thought that we got all what we need, but honey I can't do that anymore. I think it's time to let go. Deep inside we really loved each other, but I have another needs and we both know that this is not how we dreamt it'll be. Please forgive me love, it's hard to let go of you, but it's time to start following my heart, to live my dreams and chase them. There's so much in the world that we haven't seen. I don't just want to settle down, I want to live my life with great passion. I hope that you'll find out what you are looking for and fight for it! Don't let people shape your life cause it's yours, and honey life's too short for just settling down.

You're within me, ALWAYS!

I can easily feel lost and worried, because I'm the kind of person who always like to have a plan a head for tomorrow, but God is teaching me to let go of that and to trust Him, and knowing that by planning for my future or worrying about it wont take me anywhere! I spend most of my time imagining my future, that I miss enjoying my present and what God provide me for the day, and because I try to play God planning what's good and bad for me from my own human limited perspective, there's actually no room for God to be my partner and to guide my steps. How can I take control over my future when it's not even real yet? and this is the moment when I'll start to freak out and feel alone and lost. It's amazing cause those feelings are the result of me choosing to put God aside of my future planning process.

But because My God and Father is Almighty and Loves me so much, I had one of my best times with Him this morning when it was clear to me more than ever what does it mean to have the Holy spirit within me?

To have the Holy Spirit is to have God within me,
everywhere I go, everything I do You're within me,
in every pain, in every gain You're within me,
in every storm, in every dream You're within me,
in every hope, in every fall You're within me,
in every tear, in every fear You're within me.

I'm NEVER alone, You never meant for me to be alone, I have the Holy Spirit, So I can always feel you within me and for that I'm so thankful.

How can I feel lost or pain or worried, when I have you within me in every second of my life!

I pray that I will always allow the work of the Holy Spirit in my life, to let you guide me in my path, and when it's hard I'll still try to listen to your words and obey. I want you to be in control, I just don't know how sometimes, show me teach me.

Amen

You and I will meet....I believe in that dream!

what happened to the dream, that one day you and I will meet.

I look around and my dreams are pieces all around me. Am I loosing it?! Should I let go?! Should I wake up?! I don't want to let go of you. I know it'll take time, but I want my happy ending, I'm waiting for my dream to come true, that one day you and I will meet, and everything around me will stop and I'll wake up to find you here next to me, knowing that your face will be the first thing to see in the morning and the last thing to see before I go to bed, knowing that I'll love you with all of my heart and we'll grow old together.

I know that even when we are apart you were always a part of me and in your heart there was always place for me. I will hold on to my dream that one day you and I will meet. I know that only few people can afford to dream and fight for their dreams and believe in them and wait patiently for their dreams to come true and I choose to be one of them.

I choose to wait for you knowing it gets hard sometimes and lonely other times, but to know how much I will be safe in your arms when you hug me, to see the spark in your eyes when you see me, to know that when we are apart we cant wait to meet again. Makes it all feel like a piece of a chocolate cake!

Even when we disagree or have our conflicts we know it's a part of real life, it doesn't change anything cause we'll choose to love, serve and sacrifice for one another, cause by the end of the day you and I are one! it doesn't matter who wins or loses cause you and I are together now, we are one!

So let's hang in there, cause I have the dream that one day our life will change forever, when you and I will meet

And I'm back!!

I was walking to my work today having this big smile on my face enjoying a beautiful morning and listening to Taylor Swift. I had this feeling that everything is good, I felt beautiful, happy and young, that I got this energy that I can do anything I want, and that I still have a lot to give and a lot to experience!! But the truth is when I think about it, my life is more kinda falling apart, I really have no reason at all to have this smile on my face, but I do and I'll enjoy it while I still have it. I believe that the time I took away from God and the way I always felt His love even when I was far, made me realize more how much He really cares and it has nothing to do with how good I'm or what I can do or accomplish, cause even in my worse shape, when I was mad and need to have my space, He never forgot that He's my DADDY, and His arms were always open to hug me and take care of me.

Wow I think I kind of know how the prodigal son felt!! To have a Dad that will always take you back, even when you know you don't deserve it.

There will always be the WHY?
& There will always be the RUNNING FATHER!

Thank you, It feels so good to be back

Sue!

She is one of my close friends I told you about before. She's amazing and we are even closer now since we talk daily on gtalk, but yesterday she did something that really touched my heart. She drove me all the way back to Maadi from heliopolis, knowing that she'll be late and that she really hate driving!!

I think sometimes people do suprise you and in my case it was really GOOD suprise.

Sue, THANK YOU. It really meant a lot to me.